Yesterday was a gorgeous Saturday weather wise in Cape Town. Usually this means that I get up early, go for a run, come home to shower and grab something to eat and then head out with the dogs to the beach. Given I can’t do most of that during lockdown I had a short run, showered, had breakfast and cleaned the house all of which took me to around 10:00.
Then I was stuck.
I sat for ages just staring into space not quite sure what to do. I felt paralyzed.
Since lockdown started, I’ve had a list of things I’ve wanted to do but I just can’t seem to get myself to do them. I start with the best intentions, but two things seem to be holding me back:
- I check the list and I just don’t seem to be able to find the motivation to move
- I think my list entails a lot of items that I want to do because of FOMO (fear of missing out)
Let me explain the FOMO: The country is in lockdown and there are a large number of people who are unable to work during this time. Owing to the fact they are not working they have a lot of spare time on their hands. They choose to fill all this spare time baking, build beautiful 1000-piece puzzles, read loads of books, paint and make beautiful art, write every day, clean up their whole garden… the list goes on. These things sound amazing to me and I want to play and take part as well.
My FOMO has gradually been building over the past few weeks of lockdown and to-do my list yesterday tried to cram all those fun things into one day. The net end result of trying to over plan is, you guessed it, feeling overwhelmed and thus paralyzed. I relooked at my list and picked the top 5 things I wanted to do yesterday and made sure they were not too overwhelming. The next thing I did (and probably the most difficult) was to get up and take the first step toward doing one of them.
It seems silly, but the first task I had was to sort out the shelves inside my oven as they have been slanting forward for months now and all my baked stuff is coming out lopsided. At first, I couldn’t figure out how to get the shelves out (in fact I had all but given up) but decided to google a user guide and then saw how to move them. It turns out when they were last cleaned, they were just put in the wrong way and needed to be swapped around. Simple! Sorting the slanting shelves out in the oven has been on my to-do list for like 4 months! I felt such a sense of accomplishment and then membered my running coach always saying that getting out the door is the most difficult part of a run; the rest is easy.
Are you struggling with feeling inadequate that you too are not accomplishing great things during lockdown? At the end of the day you shouldn’t, this is after all a pandemic and if you spend the whole time glued to your couch watching past episodes of Friends you are still winning!